Joseph Holt is dying of cancer and in the time he has left he looks back on his life of thirty-seven years that included, among other things, being a film director, a covert government agent and an award winning author. Along with the thoughts of the various jobs he had, Joe also thinks about some of the women like Tina, Tracey Mae, Danni and of course Debbie who both in and out of the bedroom helped change and shape the direction his life took. Yet, despite the rich life Joe lived in his short time, something was missing...