When personal desires are obstructed, anger arises. We know that anger is a mask fear dons to 'fit in; to hide from the truth. The fear then must be that we are afraid we cannot have what we desire.At this point we have two opportunities to deal with this; express or control the anger. By expressing it we create an attachment to the outcome, making us more determined to fulfill our desires. When this occurs we lose freedom as our actions form bonds; losing our memory of how we arrived at this point. This becomes a new more acceptable story in place of the truth. The real truth is repressed as we begin to 'live' our cover story, leading to hatred and jealousy. From there the mind further deviates to the stage of destruction. Attachment to an outcome based on our cover story destroys the accurately recorded memory; it is buried deeply under the other emotions that have now boarded the train. When the memory ceases to work, our intelligence ceases to enter the process; it is no longer applied as we search for solutions. We lose the ability to intelligently work through the anger; it has manifested into a monster who is consuming the person affected.While the longing to be free is always there, it is clouded by hatred and jealousy. To be free means to release the attachment to the outcome. A refusal to release the attachment causes us to fall even deeper into the trap.At this point you are well and truly stuck in the self- destructive behavior pattern. This is another way to 'lose your mind.' When we 'lose our minds' something else is in control of our emotions.'Living the Dream' will return you to the place where the road turned to places you never intended to visit, and back to your own personal dreams!