When her husband, Jim, died of a sudden heart attack, Susan had nowhere to turn but to the God she had served all her life as a pastor’s wife and missionary. As she daily spent time in her Bible and poured out her heart onto the pages of her journal, a remarkable thing happened. Susan watched God turn her disappointment into discovery. She learned that even in the throes of agonizing sorrow, peace is attainable, and hope is certain. A day-by-day chronicle of Susan’s first year alone, is like a bittersweet piece of music—at times groaning, at times lilting. Ultimately, it resounds with love for the Creator who tenderly held her until she understood deep in her soul that she could indeed rejoice in her suffering, that her pain contains purpose, and her life—even without Jim—still has meaning. Read it as a memoir or as a daily devotional. Either way, it will challenge your perspective on loss and show you how to live—not just exist.