Life has always been a mixture of sadness and joy, and the balance between the two often seems skewed in one direction. Bob's life has been filled with both unspeakable tragedy and glorious moments of profound joy, leaving him to ponder if there is any design, meaning or purpose to this physical existence. The story of his life may at times make you cry, but the tears will be balanced by his hilarious experiences, reflections, and observations. Considering that he once desperately wanted to die, and eventually moving to enjoy a productive life, there is much inspiration to be found in these pages. Living life with the knowledge that permanence is an illusion allows us to learn how to reason less with our brains, and experience more with our hearts. Due to a twist in this autobiographical journey, the reader will learn a great deal about what comes next after we exit this world. This will require an open mind but will hopefully provide great insight into the question of whether we are inhabitants of a designed or random universe. The prospect of an afterlife has been pondered since the dawn of man. It's one of the great mysteries of life, but there is clarity if one digs deep.