In this candid and vulnerable memoir, Kim Zember exposes details of her life that many wouldn't dare to admit, let alone publish. Her desires for women, money, and comfort lead her down a path far from that of her Christian upbringing. Her impulsive lifestyle, coupled with an underlying fear of being alone, constantly drive her to drown out the small whisper of God she hears in moments of silence and stillness. Torn by her desires, she lives a double life, jumping back and forth from husband to girlfriends, drunken nights to morning church, Southern California real estate to nonprofit work in Ethiopia. These pages of conflict, questioning, and seeking to embody the struggle of a human soul. Yet even out of the darkest moments, love breaks through in radical ways and carries her into her God-given purpose, into serving others, into joy. Kim's transparency about her life offers encouragement to those seeking peace and joy for their own restless hearts. In the end, love wins.