As soon as I laid eyes on the words on that screen, my heart shattered into a million pieces. There it was in black and white. My husband, the man I would tell my inner most secrets to, cry to for love and affection, beg for romance, was telling another woman how he wished he'd met her first, how he liked her demeanor, her body, their conversation, their friendship... ************************************************************************************* There was a time when I didn't want to get out of bed, I didn't want to go to work, attend church or do anything with my children. I was devastated and wasn't sure how to cope with it. I didn't tell anyone about it. I held it in for months and walked around with it inside, pretending that I was okay because I didn't want anyone to know I felt like a failure... ************************************************************************************* I looked in the mirror and said, really loudly, "NEVER AGAIN!!" Never again would I allow the love of ANY man to take away my happiness. Never again would I allow one person to take my joy. Never again would I let any situation make me lose who I was and affect my self-esteem. I was an awesome woman who married a man that did not deserve me. I got on my bed and started to write...