" " Those were the words that I screamed inside my head as I rolled on the floor of my rented box room in the city. What happened afterward changed everything. Without even realising it at the time, I was saved. I was not meant to leave this life just yet. I had been spoken to and helped but not by any physical person. A realization set it. It was decision, free will to stay on this Earth and make it the best life possible. Writing has brought up huge pain and sadness but also a freedom to express what I had kept inside for so long. We fool ourselves by believing we have dealt with everything in the past, it just can't be talked out of us, or masked by prescription drugs. It is part of who we are made up of, it is up to us how we choose to see it and feel it from this moment on. This is my journey. I invite you to share that journey with me and hope in some small way it will open your heart just a little to the beauty of the Divine Energy that we all are.