One woman's journey navigating motherhood and postpartum depression. She soon realizes she has lost herself and an identity outside of being a mom. Desperately she tries to hold onto anything that allows her to feel again. She finds taking the lives of others ignites her own spark and she becomes addicted to the rush of power she receives after a kill. Will this new identity consume her? Can she find her way out of the darkness? This book discusses postpartum depression in an abstract way. It was one mother's journey through her depression and her journal and fight for survival when things were at their darkest. This is my journey. I wrote this book to help me cope and find a way to hold onto the me I was before giving birth to my second child and not this new angry, resentful person I had become. Postpartum Depression Severe Depression Suicidal thoughts Suicide attempt Unaliving Gun violence